I think there’s a place in pain and suffering where you can find peace.
Week 6 of my program at Tonic PT has been painful - mentally, more so than physically. (I don’t often walk away in pain thanks to the magic of dynamic stretches and trigger pointing). When I reflect on why it has been painful I actually become happy, peaceful and even grateful.
When you try to let go of the things you are attached to you feel pain. At week 6 - post mid-program weigh-in - I am refocussing my efforts on my eating and drinking habbits. After the first 3-4 weeks daily exercise has become habitual. My body is becoming more comfortable with movement, my various back pains are easing, my resting heart rate is down 10 bpm, and people back home are starting to notice a change in my body shape (from photos). Friends and colleagues comment I have a healthier complexion. My weight however is still the same as when I started.
I feel I have changed a lot, even if the scales haven’t; staying positive is very important to me in this process.
So as I start to give up certain foods and drink (soft drink, by the way, I don’t drink alcohol) I’m starting to feel some mental anguish. Sugar is a drug, and I’m totally hooked on it.
When I don’t do well with a meal I feel a quite guilty, sometimes ashamed. I start to feel the pressure of people’s expectations and my own desire to seize the day and make the most of the 12 week program. It’s easy to feel disheartened in this state.
Various things contribute to these days when I make the wrong food choices - workload and sleep in particular - but I decided early on that I’d never allow myself to feel like it’s all too much.
When I feel a less-than-motivated-mood-swing coming on, it’s time to reflect. One bad meal is not a whole day wasted - it’s just one meal.
The mental pain that I feel when I resist cravings (see above Re: sugar addiction) - successfully or unsuccessfully - is only there because I’m trying to change it! It wouldn’t hurt if I wasn’t trying to let it go.
That thought makes me smile. Because it’s a step forward. And Alex tells me to smile when it hurts because you will actually feel better. And you know what, you actually do.
To me the pain means I’m doing something worth it. When I reflect on that I feel the weight lift, and I feel charged again.
I sent a photo to my brother whom I haven’t seen since December. This is what he said:
Look good Caden!!!
Well ur prob fitter than me right now!! And your sticking with it and fight everything that comes with it and looks like your on top, very proud
That’s great encouragement. I like to take photos to send back home. I’m a bit of a showoff. Here’s the photo:
I do my personal training at Tonic PT. If you’re interested check them out. They’re all really great.
I’m about to start week 5 of my 12 week program with Tonic PT. In these last 5 weeks my life has already started to change.
With and without intention old, bad habits are slowly being eliminated. Some attachments I thought would be so painful to let go have melted away without me even realising.
Of course most of it takes effort, and it takes action. Changes – or improvement – comes as fast and as slow as I choose. But change is happening. Good change. And I think ultimately by taking it slow and steady it means it will be permanent.
These 12 weeks are not a crash course to lose the most weight that I can. It’s training. It’s giving me the tools to take control of my life. In this journey, weight-loss is just the side-effect in the process of giving up bad habits and building a foundation of new, healthy ones.
The guys at Tonic PT – Alex and Travis – are not just giving me amazing, thoughtful, tailored personal training, they’re helping me save myself.
Tonic PT: http://www.tonicpt.com.au/